Maunya

Ngeliat video kawinan, gw jadi nyesel, ga ngucapin kata2 sendiri, yg bakal diliat anak gw ntar betapa romantis nyokapnya..

Yah gini ya, kawinan itu.. Svck.. Lu gabisa ngapa2in, mesti nyerah egonya.. Bakal banyak bgt hal yg gak lu pesen, lu atur, tiba2 sak jrengeng..
Pelaminan norak yg dateng..
Tiba2, elu yg dah dandan cantik dgn baju dan makeup artis pilihan lu sendiri, ditempatkan di latar kandang ayam..
Hati lu mesti dipasrahin abis..
Kalo ga nerima, hasil potonya dan acara bakal terrible abis..
Secara, elu as bride adalah pusat acara panjang itu.

Waktu itu faktor penguat gw adalah gw dah megang satu potograper keren, temen gw sendiri, untuk mempoto gw di baju keren dgn berat susut 7kilo, di gedung keren. Cuma itu penguat gw. Jadi hal lain seperti pelaminan rumah kampungen.. Gw ga ngelirik dah..
Tp ternyata gw baru sadar liat poto dan pideo potograper nyokap yg standar sop banget.
Kampungens brooo.. Kayak kawinan anak pak kades..

Baju krem gw jadi putih polos kayak mukena. Tanpa gradasi apapun.
Dan pelaminan noraknya mempertegas kekampungan itu. Oranye, ungu, ijo disatuin. Ada merah dan goldnya.. Olalaaa.. Big nono buat gw...
Dan padahal gw dah pesen gebyok jati coklat tua polos, dan bunga putih. Titik. Simple dan elegan. Itu pesen gw. Dan ibu itu cuma bilang, oh iya iya, beres..
Ahhh welll
Rebesss
Harusnya gw pilih sendiri semuanyaaaa

Nah, ada hal menyebalkan lagi.
-gw cium tangan laki gw. Ini suck. Gw bersumpah dari dulu kalo gw ga akan cium tangan laki gw. Penghinaan buat gw..
Tp nyokapnya nyuap gw.. Setiap kali ketemu dia ciummm mulu tangan gw. Dan laki gw juga.
Gw jadi gaenak..
Dan akhirnya gw ciumlah tu tangan laki gw yg males potong kuku. Huh..
Tapi, demi.. Demi kelancaran acara dan semua senang dan di poto gw keliatan cantik..

-disuruh ngomong 'akang, saya akan mengikuti akang';' akang, ucapkan takbul zakiya samting..' Yang eww I wuddd neverr say thosee!!
Tapi, demiiiiiii.. T. Gw dah pasrah dah mau diapain, yg penting sorenya gw poto cuantik..

-gw didikte ngikutin kata2 ustad itu. Word by word.. Ewww yg kata2nya najong berat dah..
Kalo gw tau bakal di pideoin, gw pasti langsung nyela.
Dan bilang:

" sayangku, aku, adalah seorang pemimpi. Itu kekuatanku. Tapi seringkali aku tak tau bagaimana mewujudkannya.

Bertemu kamu, aku tau, kamu bisa buat aku bisa.

Sayangku, kamu bukan laki yang datang dari mimpi, tapi kau adalah laki bumi, yang datang untuk mewujudkan mimpi.."
Aku cinta kau..

Rencananya sih

Rencana, mau hanimun nih januari. Secara doi cisa cuti baru ntar.

1. CGK-HKT. 21jan. X2. 1.040.000
2.HKT-KUL 23janx2. 900.000
3. KUL-REP 24janx2. 600.000
4. SGN-CGK 30janx2. 2.000.000
-----------------+
Rup 4.540.000
Nah itu baru estimasi tiket pesawatnya aja..
Kalo gw sih, sbnernya bisa2 aja brangkat sinting gak persiapan, nginep dimanapun. Laki gw apalagi.
Tapi laki gw tuh, kayaknya gamau bgt gw luka sedikitpun.. Gw yakin tar bakal lbh susah jalan ma doi..

Yooiiiii ayooo semangat nih..

wed count

okay. let's count.

1. Wedding dress.

a.White dress: tanabang, 6m brocade x12 = 72K

satin,4mx10 = 40K

Gave it to designer : 4jt

total : 4. 112. 000 rp.

b. Red dress: tanabang,3m red brocadex50 = 150K

satin: 3mx10 = 30K

boutique lynn's bandung = 500K

bolero of a designer+accessories= 1000K

total : 1.680.000 rp

c. Make up plus accessories (3 times). morning akad, afternoon photoshoot, and nite party.

total : 3.000.000 rp

d. Shoes. hadthem forlong, bcos im a shoeholic.

Zara : 700K Ninewest red : 459K

total: 1.159.000 rp

2. The groom suites

a. Morning akad. white.

designer : total: 4.000.000rp

b. Nite Party suit. Carthago.

blazer = 1.200K

pants = 360K

shirt = 299K

red tie = 100K

total: 1.959.000 rp

3. Photographer.. Santirta and mas Sulis. price? well it's a secret. but that talented photographer is a friend of mine. so,it was a friendly price he gave us.

4. Ferry band, recommended by a good friend. Awesome, and affordable, nice people and soooooooo stunning!! love them. Price? also a secret. cant tell you.

5. the Concordia resto.

they only charged for the food. not the venue.. so, itwas quite affordable luxury they offer.

this is from my side.

i dont include what our both parents had spent for the wedding.

the most expensive cost is to pay for their big families.

if not,then,wonderful wedding is actually affordable. if you've got a job and can pay.

has tied the knot

we finally tied the knot.

ah, those days.. were so hectic.

and i finally found out that the legend about bride frantic before wed-day is true. i had it myself.

i ran away from home. i asked my self wether i want the marriage or not. i wondered if my choice of him was wrong. the feeling that i wanna go out and run,leaving the oath table.

but yet, thank god i'm a snob. pride is what i believe is important.

i already invited a lot of people.

strictdiet

hard n strict diet for a month,only eating papaya, semangka at breakfast and dinner. having kailan garlic or boiled bayam or broccoli for lunch. thank god it worked. i reduce my weight, 7kilo.hahah.. i was fat and i didnt realize it until i started dieting that month.

and i actually still wanna lose it another 6. don't ask the number.

thedress

that dress was my dreammmm dress. perfect. it could be better,but its gorgeous ooredi. i didn't want kebaya or other common wed dress.

my wed vision was: great classic simple photo. showing what we both are.

i choose for the designer,plus makeup, show her my design, and she turned it into owwwww dresss.

for this dress, i did strictdiet.

the photographer

what i want for the wedding is actually the greatphotos. i want to be extremely beautiful in the photo. bcos after wed, i might get knockedup sooner..

so, i got myself a gorgeous dress, and got me strictdiet, and voila.

the date

3x7 = 21

2+1=3

3x2 +1 =7

3.7.2010

well here we go

btw, i did ranaway, a day before wedding day.

my mom cried. my dad got pissed off.

my guy found out, and broke the pingitan promise i asked him.

then,i knew.

the minute i saw him.

i want to be with him.

'i care only for you. not anything else. i want to be your wife.'

he said,'we will be good.' and he kissed me.

then, he dropped me home, to get my beauty wed sleep.

and we tied the knot the next day.

i am glad that i am married to a man that i love. who loved me big.

i'm following what my heart is asking..

Uneasy heart

My heart is uneasy.
All this joy and good thing keep visiting..
But my heart is still uneasy.

My dream. my way. My freedom.
Have not yet fulfilled.
I still want to live it..

My journey.
Alone.

Will you help me, love?

Sometimes I still miss my single moments. Being free, unattached, undepended on anyone.

When I got married, I still want to be an individual.

When everyone's cleaning on their own sh)t.

To cook whatever they each want.
Doing different hobby.

We are different. He and I.
He doesn't like jogging. He does only swimming. He likes being together. I like being alone. He feels responsible on anything. I do everything I want, for me.
He wants me to cook. I don't like cooking, washing,ironing.

Sometimes, I'm afraid.
But I'm a loner, so what's the terrible thing just to add some guy to your life?
I thought so.
Turns out, that one guy brought a mom, sister, uncles,aunties, friends,with multiple problems on it.
What I hate, I have to play the role to smile in front of his smoking friends and some families.
I hate smoke. Smell, annoying.
I Always do consider smokers are stupid. And women smokers even more.
To ruin your own body is stupid.
Eat healthy, do sports. The rest will be ok.

So, this happened to be such a cultural shock. For me.

Not excited, not sad, just.. I feel none.
Just like having a friend in your room like in dorm.

Miss G, will always be miss G. Ignorant talented shrew free dreamer
Huh

The 80% white dress

Its not finished yet. But its much better than what I imagined.
Bravo irna la perle..
I love it that it's 95%perfect to what I want.
Who aint love perfection?
Especially perfection in seeing beauty.

Bule nda

Ceritanya apa ya

Kompekdis

Legenda

My white wedgown

Bandingin. Gambar desainer irna la perle ama gambar gw. Hehehe..

Emoh

Semakin gw ikutin bahasan pintar ini, semakin otak bilang: emoh!
Ada yang salah dengan otak gw. Atau rasa gw. Apanya?
Gabisa gw biarin gini terus..
Stay or out?

ini punclut, bandung

dulu ni daerah sepi, as in 1986 an. sekarang, kayak gambar disini, dah rame ama tempat2 makan gubug gitu, yang jongkok2 kayak abdi dalem sultan.

ni tempat laku, karena bagus amat pemandangannya.

jadi, dari ciumbuleuit ke atasss terus, sampe dah. lanjut2, tembus tu lembang.

nah dulu kan orang di jalan aja bisa liat tuh view, sekarang mah, musti masuk dulu ke gubug baru bisa liat kota bandung dari atas. coba di malem ari.
ini jalan dari punclut gubug ke lembang.
eh, lu2 gausah kesini deng, tar bandung tambah penuh dan tambah maceet aja.jadi lecet deh tu kaki nginjek rem

Kejap dan lama.

Meninggalkan sekejap cinta didalam rumah.
Iapun begitu.
Sampai kubuka lagi pintu.
Iapun begitu.
agar kami kembali bertemu bercerita berhadapan tentang sianghari.
Aku dan kamu.

Wed place

This is where I'm going to get married.
Bumi sangkuriang, bandung

my first wedding ring

pasangan norak suka bling2

My first diamond

-toko mas cikini. Engagement ring. Centil enough, simple enough,not flashy enough.

Must be great to be draupadi.
Allowed to have five great husbands at a time.
From left: arjuna-bhima-yudhistira-nakula-sadewa-drupadi

If I'm having a severe mental breakdown,
Will you still be with me?

kucing pramuka

kalo lu dateng ke sebuh tempat yang banyak rumah, beton, tukang jual baso, jalan beraspal, lu bakal ngerasa aneh ga kalo ada kucing seliweran?

nggak pastinya kan.

ini sebuah pulau kecil, di tengah lautan luas. jaraknya 3 jam pake kapal besar seharga 30ribu rupiah dari muara angke di jakarta.

pulau kecil itu,hanya berukuran 20menit jalan kaki muterin satu pulau.

perumahan biasa, seperti di dalam area perumahan desa, atau daerah kos2an anak kampus di margonda depok.

ada sd, smp, sma (namanya smu 69). ada rumah sakit bagus, yang katanya ga ada isinya gara2 ga ada yang sakit. dan listrik, yang baru menyala pukul 9 malam. tapi sudah lumayan lah. benar2 kota kecil. tenang, dan nyaman, tak ada kerusuhan dan paksa2an beli2 ini itu. pengamen apalagi, ga ada.

sisanya dari kehidupan sosial itu?

Laut.

Laut biru, gradasi. dari terang keputihan sampai biru banget.

semuanya bikin hati seneng.

dan kucing2, disana banyak..

hampir semuanya kita temuin pada tidur sangat amat nyenyak seperti mati. dimana saja. rumput, meja, kursi, yang terletak di jalan.

ciri fisiknya, kulitnya ga begitu halus, tapi lumayan bersih, ga ada yang gendut, dan bobo semua.

mungkin, itu karena panas pantai yang bikin ngantuk,dan selalu makan ikan mentah yang katanya buat bulu kucing rontok dan kasar. dan.. ga ada anjing.

kepenasaran gue muncul lagi. gimana bisa mereka berkembang biak disini, secara ya, kucing, masak iya tumbuh dari lepehan ikan tripang..

dan teorinya sih, pastinya ada orang pertama yang bawa2 kucing, ato ada kucing2 yang masuk tak sengaja ke kapalbuat ngejar tikus di pulau.

dan berkembang biak.

mikir kaya gitu, gue jadi ngerasa pulau2 itu seperti perwujudan kisah nabi nuh..

Morning salemba

Golden bca.
Silver bni.
Blue sky.

In orchard

A glimpse of..

Pusing

Okay, now I'm stressed.
I just got home in jakarta,
Sat in my pink sofa..
And I've got that strange awkward feeling.
I'm distressed

I was having my own life. I made it the way I want it.
Now, two moms, one dad, brothers, big number of people coming involved.
They gave us rules, wishes,life..
O my..
This is big,
And I Hate It!
I want my own life..
Now I'm petrified.
I nearly hate him..
For being so obedient to the family..
For being so closed to his friends that I can not feel closed to..

I hate being ruled, by anyone
But I need him

And I'm still petrified..

Hh

Everybody needs him.
I don't need anyone.
How can we deal this..

He likes staying in house to have his friends coming, hangingout, visiting, etc etc.
I like staying in my flat to have noone coming and do my own world.
How can we deal this..

He said, why do u limit yourself
Mom said, why are you so snobbish
I said, I just like to do things my own..

Can we deal this?

ngabur ultah

jalan2 ke orchard ama esplanade, jam 6 pagi dari cengkareng, dan jam 6 sore sampe cengkareng lagi

Kamu di post-it

Sayangku, mungkin nama kamu ga ada di post-it2 ini. Tapi semua post-it ini ada karena aku ada kamu..
Aku siap untuk mewujudkan mimpi lagi..

kecil item

aku ga sabar pengen pake baju ini. ayoo!!

-forever21.

my intl job

International Law Journal.

nah, tulisan2 didalem jurnal2 inilah yang seharusnya menjadi kerjaan gue.

peneliti hukum internasional bidang hukum angkasa.

tapi otak gue sekarang lagi mampet.

dan terus menerus makin ngerasa kalo ini bukan kerjaan gue, tapi ego gue untuk ngerasa kalo gue ini pinter, dan bisa ngatasin hal2 susah yg ga gue suka seperti hukum (angkasa.)

dan terus menerus bilang,kalo gue punya keluarga ntar, anak gue akan gue dorong untuk nemu hal yg dia suka, dan terus berusaha untuk ngedapetin apa yg dia mau, dengan usahanya sendiri. karena ga ada yg lebih menyenangkan dari ngelakuin apa yg kita mau, kita suka, kita butuh, dengan segala usaha kita.sendiri.

jangan sampe, kesombongan elu ngalahin kesenangan hati lu yg sangat jujur.lu bakal rusak.

dan kalo lu dah terlanjur rusak, mesti gimana?

gatau.

yang tau jawabannya lo sendiri,abis jawabannya cuma, jujur aja ama lo sendiri. yeah, big surprise, ga banyak orang yg bisa jujur sendiri ternyata.

we all are liars.

well, kalo gue, kalo dah kecebur, ya mau ga mau gue harus renang2 surviving.ngalawan arus hati, sampe ketepi sungai deras.

jadi, sebenernya sih, gampang aja, kalo gue kesampingin hati. semua masalah bisa dijawab pake matematika.logika.

so, pertanyaan: kerjaan lu apa? ngapain? gimana? apa aja bahannya? trus?

jawab: peneliti. nulis. baca banyak buku. jurnal. dan nulis.

udah itu aja. gampang kan

iya. gue struggling untuk hal2 mudah itu. hhh

okay, you friends,just get out. this is my own battle. out of my side! shooh!

kecilnya kertas biruu

poor little blue paper..

okay turned out, i don't need to bring much to sing.

unless if you intended to shop..

i think, for only one day trip to take pictures in esplanade, raffles, orchard, everywhere the mrt goes..

weonly need the mrt tickets.

which is only 15sgd to buy the new one, and 10sgd to reload it. or 70K rp. yeah, with under 100 K rp, u still can live..

with 500 K rp, u can stayover the nite, and go home the next day.

the public transportation, it's oh, so cheap, and available almost every 4 minutes. reliable also.

more, the people are so nice and informative.

very different with our own people in our own city. they are so fierce to theirown fellow indos.

summary: if your nature in your home is already cheap, then you will manage to survive out there, anywhere..

self and with

my boyf and i, we both had different idea of friendship.

for him, friendship is to be available to help or be there whenever the friend wants to.in need, fall, for no reason..etc..

yeah, i can't agree more. it's fine, i do believe so.

so, one dinner, i'm picking this bottle of ketchup across the table, right in front of him who sat next to me.

i was reaching that far bottle.

then, he stopped it.

harshly, he said, 'just ask. that's the beauty of life. you don't have to do it yourself!'

then he took that bottle easily and put it near my mushroom fettucini plate.

ow, i first thought he stopped me because of my sleeve that he scared off would be dirty to be on the food, or the germs i might get infected to his food.

and i was surprised.

yeah, im a smartass, i dont take advice from others, but i do listen.

and i heard those 'justask' word many times, i sometimes say it to my shy friends.

and i was surprised that i was surprised.

o yeah, i said to him. 'its a new word for me. never think of that..' ah, stupid lie. the truth, i can not give the smart answer at the moment.i was still mesmerized.

and now i have moment to think about it.

now i got it.

for him, life is wonderful for having cooperation between people. friends helping others.

when you fall down the small street, even only having very tiny cut in your knee, just ask. or don't, people will help you. and that is so,o, beautiful life.

for me, well dude, life is more beautiful when you can stand up and stick upyourself. you fall? so what. just get your ass up. IT IS MORE BEAUTIFUL!

honey, you are the first son in the family. yeah, you take care of everybody. so, to help is in your blood.

me?im the last daughter. i've had enough of the security given by others. to live, is about to stand out, good.

my schatzi, yea, i think you and i, we both, different and complete each other..

heheh..

lub you beyb..

much

so,u said u're the cynical one,huh? yeah rite

oh office..every single day is always a battle to love you..

heard that much?

feel that much?

once heard it somewhere?

well..

they said 80% working at the office people feel do.

well,

if my bestfriends spray these words..

i'd give them advice:

'so, then, leave it! go! find and do things that you like.find you passion. and stick to it!'

'live your life! dont be a sucker like all the sucker people who licks their bosses arses and say good things in their faces.go! live'

'honey, if you feel that way in instant, then, it's not your job.'

yea.. that's what i'd be saying.and believe.

still do believe.

hhh

yea,

someone don't read her own advice..

c'est moi

Earth

Schatzi,
You are not the man of my dream.
But you are my man on the earth..
I lust you

Kayaknya dua kata menakutkan buat gw:
1. Lo gak cerdas
2. Lo ndut

Want this

Pengen meja ini..

Cervics

Temen gw ngabarin, kalo temennya kena penyakit beresiko mati ini. Padahal, temennya itu perempuan yg sgt baik dalam pergaulan, sehat, ga ngerokok, dan ga berbebas ria.
Ternyata setelah menikah, setahun kemudian, ia mengidap penyakit ini. Lethal to women.
Kata dokter, penyebabnya, kalo dah begini, adalah dari suaminya. Yang bebas masa lalunya, bawa penyakit, yg ga ngaruh buat dia, tapi iya buat istrinya.
Lethal weapon.
Lalu, diadakanlah vaksin kanker cerviks ini.
Prosesnya lama, setaunan. Disuntik 3 kali dalam setaun itu.
Kalo untuk Aku, gatau deh.. pasrah aja?
Time is clicking..
Decide!

Pencegahan Kanker Serviks Uteri :
1. Kalau tdr tdk ush pakai CD.
2. Shbs pipis keringkan dgn tissue.
3. Ganti CD minimal 2x sehari.
4. Ganti pembalut minimal 2x sehari.
5. Hindari mkn makanan/buah yg meningkatkan produksi lendir : nanas, kol, timun, dsb.
6. Jangan memegang vagina dengan kuku kotor.
7. Jangan biarkan CD basah.
8. Jangan melakukan sex bebas.
9. Kalau bisa lakukan pemeriksaan USG/ screening Uterus secara rutin.

Sebarkan ke semua orang yang kamu kenal. Selamatkan PEREMPUAN

minimonet

taken from http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1239267/Meet-mini-Monet-Seven-year-old-boy-sells-paintings-900-each.html a child prodigy? should a child prodigy have got this brain that thinks like adult/ seeing beauty in the eyes of the elder? it is wonderful indeed. but it's not honest. the child brave honesty that is being the value of childhood.. please, my age now is the age where i can have 5 boys like him.. but i still do believe in the bold and daring truth passionate spirit that is named childhood spirit..

the grd

http://aidavyasa.multiply.com/journal/item/439

isinya: sapa yg bikin lambang garuda.
ganteng beneuurr.. gaswatt
a man that ganteng.. we cant trust them women..
but maybe the state can.

kayanya sih, lambang begituan pasti terinspirasi lambang2 di eropa juga, yang ngebuat binatang jadi satu tampak grafikan warna emas, dan perisai terbagi berapa simbol berwarna alam: merah hijau, emas putih.
ya globalisasi, pencampuran budaya..sudah ada dari dulu.
emang, burung dan benda2nya lokal. gaya, style, bungkus interlokal.

6mil dol pound eur

I'm dreaming of 6million dollar. Or euro. Or pounds.
What for?
Everything.
Put 60mil is much better.
Ro study,art,gallery, dreams..

Yea, it's impossible money for a non business anything like me.
But then.. It is a dream indeed.
It's nonsense, a friend says.
I laugh.

To dream is to set a goal.
To dream is to measure how much you value yourself.
Yes, your value is for you yourself to create.

Then, creativity is a way to bring the dream comes alive..
That's how your value can be seen.
The attitude, brain, and result.

Yes, I said my dream is 6-60million dollar pound euro..

Impossible money?
Maybe.

Possible money?
Definitely!

Why definitely?
Here.
As I assumed, dream is how you value yourself..
60million $£ is my dream. To gain all the dreams I want to achieve. All. Art study shoes academic etc.. And some other Great dreams..
Therefore, 60mil$£ is my value.
I am worth 60mil$£..

To gain the dream, I have to make sure I worth the dream..

So, don't waste it.
Don't waste your dreaming oportunity..

DREAM BIG!!

Nggak.. Godaaann

Kalo lagi pusing, cuma satu yg bisa bikin hati seneng. Shoes..
Problem w/ guys,work,mom,god,fat,money..
Only by seeing shoes..
The colors, the shape..
It's art.
Since I no longer would see painting, because, I paint myself. And I want to see new york galeries for painting, not more indonesian, because indonesian paintings are so damn beautiful..I'm envy..
So here we are..

Yang 50persen, itu cuma 300ribuan. Harga normal sekarang. Tinggi.. Dan aga sakit.
Trus yg sendal fucshia, turquoise,item dan yang gede itu.. Buatan schutz, 200usd alias 2jutaan..
Nah, ada balenciaga lego shoes. Itu sepatu eksentrik, harganya? 4175 usdolar.. Alias, 41jutaan lewat..

Dulu gw gasuka sepatu mahal.diatas 300rb. Sekarang? Because I can.. And I love passionate art..
And the believe, we can do dream and make more..
Rite dude?

Malu?

To name a few..

The sin I love..
Better than any kisses..
Any chocolate that fats..
Stress reliever..

benda tersayang

red shoes nine west.luminence something. lobbb it

fucshia sofa, aku pesen di kelapa gading, gara2 sedih liat sofa di index mahal banget. dan cuma iseng, ternyata dapet beginian. 1,8jt. kalo mau tau, tokonya deket index di MAG kok. jalan2 dikit tar liat sofa2 yang dipajang banyak dan dibawah 2jt. mayan bener.

my lobly BLUE ZARA HEELS.. pastinya gw dapet diskon.. yea, im cheap. ga diskon ga beli, kalo branded. abis pasti deh sale mah..

kalo ini, lenove netbook. pinkyyy lucu beneerrr

Girls, whatever happen, don't stop just be a fulltime housewife. It is great for 12 first year, after?
Woman needs a life of her own,
Or not, when it's late, she'll end up lonely.angry.sad.
All moms.
Work yourself, girl

Ngebedah tulisan orang, novel, sastra, fiksi, mungkin emang oke aja. Its good to know what's in someone thoughts, the depth, the idea.
Tapi the idea of seeing, knowing what you write being discussed by someone else, as if it was the great lesson should be thaught..
Rasanya janggal.
Karena tulisan fiksi adalah imajinasi liar yg seringkali berisi pertanyaan.
Rasa gelisah penulis.
Apa cocok dijadikan mata kuliah

Arse msg

He called me again. My ex.
The more he called, the more realized I am.
He was meant to be out of my equator, was a generous act of invisible hands of the lord.
Salvation.
Rescue.
Prevent.
I'm saved. For now.
I realize, I can see it clearer,
My ex was, is, will be, an arse.
He might be a great smart wise guy in his business world. But as a man, he fails.
And yet, he still thought I'm his ho.. Unpaid ho..
Arse.

bloated

' Oh perutnya badut kan sama kaya perut oki..'
ada avatar kw 3 dibuat orang indo buat tpi.
Dll

Cuma berapa minggu aja pake tv kabel yg isinya film, film, serial, u think u can dance, kartun, jimjam.. Ternyata aku betah ga liat tivi lokal.
Sangat.
Begitu kabel ilang, ngeliat tivi lokal lagi, terasa asam sekali.kecut, dan sungguh rasanya seperti liat tayangan menggarok borok basi yg masih basah.
Dan baru bisa nemu kata:
Tv lokal itu sekarang dirajai aksi interaktif, kuis, pagelaranlomba musik,sinetron jelas, dan semakin tergila2 dgn reality show.
Dan semua entah kenapa, terasa murah. Murahan. Kalo kelas2an. Semua tayangan kelas C. Bahkan berita2 seriusnya pun.
Kenapa?
Oh ternyata.. Dari sedikit kata diatas, ketika ada badut gendut seorang celetuk: oh, kayak oki..
Filosofi tayangan tv media kita, secara sosiologis, sudah terbentuk sbg sosok mengejek, yaitu tanda insecure akan kualitas diri, sehingga mengecilkan kualitas orang lain.dan menjadikannya jualan. Pastilah it sells. Shallow sells. Like sex sales.
Shallow.
Prinsip minder akan kualitas diri sehingga mentololkan orang lain, mewabah ke agenda2 lain.

Trus, mu gimana sekarang?
Kayanya sih, banyak puter film layar lebar ya.. Yg top2nya. Nggak yg klas e gitu.

Dan ow, ttg avatar grade kw 3 di tv itu, no probs sih. Diluar segi etika. Abis dah jelas juga buat kelas apa segmennya. Dan untuk kasihtau masy itu ada loh kisah begini..
Dan get money from it. Ga salah, kelasnya emg bgt. Kec dia jual di tempat yg first class, jelaslah lgs dihujat.
Dah ah.
Liat dono kasino indro dulu

Kemana

Gw sejujurnya ngerti dan yakin kalo space law ato apapun bidang hukum kebijakan dsb, bukan bidang gw yg sesuai otak gw.
Dan gw tau, dr dulu, dr sekolah, kebudayaan selalu menarik buat gw. Antropologi. Dgn gampang gw ngerasa klik.
Trus sekarang, kalo mau lanjutin kemana? Tetep space llm sih..
Tapi itu pride. Bukan cinta.
Barusan liat di youtube ttg law master degree class di leidn. Dan ow..
Begitu stiff, kaku.. Dan.. Oh no.. Gw lgs migren.
Pilihan space gw cm dua. Leiden ato mcgill di kanada. Kayanya, leidn lebih space law. Mcgl lebih air law. Gw lbh pgn space law nya sih. Tp ternyata bahkan isi space law pun ga se dreamy yg gw kira.. Masih soal kebijakan dan sgt kebijakan sekali.. Gw jadi neg.. Menghindari tata negara yg buljit, malah ke hukum kebijakan super buljit.
Padahal kenapa gw pgn spce lw krn gw rasa ini penuh dgn pertimbangan humanitarian, masih banyak crita soal manusianya yg bermimpi akan masa depan. Ah, gw buljit abis.
Dan emg, itu adalah antrop juga.
Iya, kalo gw singkirkan pride spclw, gw mau ngelanjutin belajar antropologi, di georgetown uni gitu. Hahaha.. Itu lebih mimpi lagi ya? Kalo gw bisa jual lukisan ato cerita anak sampe 50rb dolar aja. Sukur2 100rb dolar. Gw lgs melesat ke washtndc. Aw aww mimpii aja

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Ini nih, tahu gejrot pedes banget bawang putih aja ala menteng..

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Abis ngelukis

Seperti semua kegiatan menyenangkan dan passionate lain, persiapan sudah melelahkan. Tapi ia cuma 10 persen dari seluruh kegiatan. Pada saat kegiatan, emang ampir 70 persen yg dikerahkan. 30persen sisanya, adalah proses pembersihan.
Kadang kalo males proses pembersihan bisa males ama proses2 sebelumnya. Akirnya prosuk pun gajadi.
Kaya ngelukis nih, melukis selalu menyenangkan. Tapi setelahnya itulooh
Di tempat sekecil rumahku ini, belepotan cat minyak tebal, bukan pilihan yg menyenangkan. Apalagi ngebersihin kwasnya yg alaihim gambreng..
Jangan sampe kwas lama ga dibersihin. Amit2 dewh.. Keras benerr
Tu kwas2 kotor dimasukin ke plastik item yg isinya minyak utk cat dan cairan pembersih kwas. Direndem ujung kwasnya aja. 15menitan, dilap satu2.. Di oser ke tangan, ulang lagi, sampe lembut, dan basuh di air mengalir pake sabun batangan ato sunlite.
Dan kalo dah puas, baru selesei.
Lalu, ahh ati2 kalo lukisannya masih basah dan jatuh ke lantai. Olalaaa
Tunggu seminggu lagi baru boleh nempel di lantai.

Ahh aku masih suka sih ngelukis..
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Purple for anna

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