setiap pulang rumah, rasanya kayak gue tuh jadi manusia paling berdosa di seluruh dunia...

the most sinful lady in the whole world..evrytime i see my family.
not because i am so.
but the way i got treated, turns i believe so i am.
gosh..
have you once got wounded in any part of your body? your finger got cut, your feet step on nail, when your teeth has problem with tooth decay..
they all are so bloody hurt..totally..
now, this is what i feel.
inside.
all your body shivering to hold the pain..
that is what i feel evrytime i meet mom, pa, mas, mbak, dek..
i m so dirty..
just like what my little brother did.
he suddenly read me holy quran out loud and did annoying thing like, discussing religion with pa out loud, in the reason of 'making me awaken', back to the right way..
ah..
i am so sinner..
for them..
what if i am?
i do. want to change.
want to be free, unleash all this.
to strip down.

i am broken heart.
of evrybody i love.
every one of it

i give in, all.
and i am taken, all.

help.